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Capricorn · Looking for: Man, 43–53
I attract "Who" I Am???? What does that mean?Well, we are ALL mutually attracted to someone who has only the capacity to love us as much as we love ourselves. If you think you 'love' yourself in a healthy way, look at your past relationships. Did that person treat you in a way that made you feel loved, respected and 'safe' in your relationship? Did you hold things back so as not to upset or anger them? Was your relationship built on "unshakable safety"? Could you each do nothing that would anger or make the other crazy??Well, if you had that, unless your partner passed from this earth, you wouldn't be on this site. I am unique! I live by the motto, "Every moment in life is either a success or an education. Guaranteed." It wasn't until I knew this, I was able to see that what needed to be changed in my life was ME! And the greatest gift I can give myself is the gift of being Exactly who God created me to be. I no longer pretend to be something I am not in order to make some controller peaceful because he has to have exactly what he wants. Angry and mean or whiny and withholding, either way, those people are trying to get what they want=control!! Easy-going (compliant?) people think this is normal. Now I know that it's healthy to want what I want and just find someone who wants the same thing. Then, let go of the rest!!I have never known such peace!! No walking on eggshells, no drama, no chaos, just pure peace!!Only the emotion of unconditional love is real. Everything else, jealousy, controlling others, monitoring yourself, arguing, giving in for the sake of peace in your relationship, not being truthful with your feelings, not allowing people to FEEL their feelings the moment they hit, all this is just a cry for help and healing. What kind of healing?? The healing of your spirit into wholeness by not just accepting that God loves you but internalizing His unconditional love into your own heart so that you too can truly love unconditionally. Because now, nothing that anyone does or says can be an attack on you since you no longer need the acceptance of anyone outside yourself. And all attack is seen in truth, as a cry for help because that person does not accept themselves unconditionally and they need other people to agree with them, do what they want by whatever means necessary. Threats no longer have any hold over me because I know that my spirit, the real me, is invulnerable and untouchable. I am FREE to be the real me. I'm SUPER busy with my boys, 11 & 13, (21 & 23 kids in college and working, live in their own home) pets & writing, but my time is completely my own. I am a feather on the breath of God!I'm catholic and very, very spiritual. My own twist ~ I don't believe in sin or hell and that heaven is here on earth if you are willing to seek it. Life can be total peace and joy, once you place all your faith and trust in God. I avidly study a course in miracles and the way of mastery. Having said that, I believe there is more than one path to God.What about me? Well, I was a mostly stay-at-home Army Officer's wife and a mother with some money making endeavors thrown in along the way. I've had a tax consulting business for nearly 20 years that I scaled down two years ago when the e-filing laws changed. I taught dance (tap, jazz, ballet, etc.), baton twirling and gymnastics until I was 32 and had my two youngest sons. I'm even highlighted in a training DVD of an MLM company for earning nearly a half million dollars in eleven years as a stay-at-home mother of four(a fluke!). I arm-twisted my best friend into joining and she made even more! That was a very visible gift from God! As I look back, I see each moment in life as a gift from God. And even though for my ex it was never enough, I can see that my past has brought me to who I am today. I wouldn't change a second, for I needed each lesson, no matter how difficult, to become who I am at this moment. I wouldn't want to be anyone else and I wait in anxious anticipation for God's will to continue to be done in my life. I believe the two most important moments in life are the moment you are born and the moment you know why. Have you figured out why you are here on this earth?I also have realized that until each one of us is satisfied and at true peace within ourselves we are not ready for a relationship. Another human will never make you happy or bring you peace, they can only create a distraction from the hole in your heart which will eventually show itself and you will be disappointed that this other person couldn't be who you needed. So until you need nothing, your relationships will continue to be lessons provided by God. And he will continue to provide you with the same lessons in life, over and over, with increasing intensity, until you learn the lesson. What kind of man would I be drawn to? Job creators, MBAs, engineers, etc. A big picture, out of the box type of man. Our world is made up of 75% the do-ers of society and 25% the creators of society. If you go to work every day to make money so you can have your life financially, I wouldn't be for you. If you go to work in order to make a difference in the lives of others, in your town, or the world, we should talk. In contrast, I'm not interested in a man if...... - You have tattoos. (Perhaps a small hidden one.)- You wear shirts with writing in public unless it’“the unexamined life is not worth living". - You have a motorcycle AND you show a picture of it, alone, and riderless. - The photos in your profile are all head shots with different facial expressions. Non-- You drink beer only and you don't like wine. - If your free time is 25% or more watching other people play sports, I am NOT for you.- You don't exercise nearly everyday in order to maintain. Honestly, I work out or play sports almost every day. I'd like to lose five or so pounds around the middle, but then I would no longer be a 32G. It's a compromise. - You are not currently on a path to spiritual awakening and enlightenment. I devote all my free time to studying and writing on this subject. - You cannot successfully answer this question: “From reading MY profile, what is it about you that makes you think you are the man of my dreams? My divine complement? The man whom God would have given the same life mission and we would fulfill it together, and not distract each other from our appointed, chosen and beloved task?" The only thing I want to disagree about is who's turn it is to give. Chatting in the spirituality section of a nice bookstore while sitting on the floor. Then, maybe out for a glass of wine somewhere.
