Bambi, 26
Offline, last seen Tue, 23 Apr 2024 14:22:28
About Me
I don't get on much but I do watch my notifications and wait for someone to hit me up, I'm not going to be the one to approach anymore.
I probably won't delete the pictures of my ex straight away, but in time, I'm willing to upload new ones though with new memories. My mom said that it was ok ??..
Life's short and it scares me.
My ex bought me a gaming PC but took it when he left to spite me, so I only have Xbox one.
My profile may talk a lot about him but we broke up last Sunday (June 23)so it's normal.
If you find it offensive move on, I'm not going to kiss ass anymore or make myself seem irresistible, specially when I have issues right now that I'm willing to fix, it's just taking longer when I'm lonely and depressed, even when we were together I was lonely because he always called my issues excuses or said they were in my head.
He moved in with me after 2 months cause I offered him somewhere to stay but he complained about everything, even as far as the amount of rent (about $***, or how late my mom made dinner. It was hard to get him to clean or help with our dog, he would complain about being tired even on weekends unless he was going to friends.
He made me feel embarrassed and ashamed and eventually I started being mean cause I couldn't change things.
Our house is old and wasn't treated well over the years by anyone in it, besides my grandparents who lived here after us so it's sort of ugly, there's hairdye on the walls, mostly my fault.
We moved back after a couple years to take care of my grandpa but he had to go to a care home because of his dementia.
But as long as I can see my family often I'm willing to move.
I don't have a car or job as it's hard for me to leave the house so if that's a turnoff you may be wasting your time, but I'm currently trying counseling I went to a walk-in last Tuesday (June 25)and haven't had a reply for my next appointment, but it's hard to do things when you're crying and dying inside.
(he swore he would help me accomplish things but eventually he never had the time I guess or forgot to keep the promises and gave up on me within a year (cause he was too worried about the next time he would see his friends.) Or maybe I'm just lonely and Because I have never had friends in my life that I just see things differently or incorrectly but friends are temporary, I need commitment, someone to be burried next to when we both die of old age.(I speak my mind and I'm not scared to, I am pretty negative and it's something I'm going try to fix in time).
Everyone starts somewhere.
I have acne, fat rolls, cellulite, stretch marks, crooked teeth, scars and mental issues such as anxiety, depression, insecurities and low self esteem.
I''m probably the most honest and open minded person you will ever meet, I never judge and I never belittle unless you start it first or allow your so called friends to hurt me. I talk a lot if we have things to talk about, I don't have a lot of experiences, only a lot of past issues. But I hope you can help me create things to talk about.
Honestly if I see that you look like a model I''ll probably next you or *** because I know you would never be with someone like me once we met in person, I have a weird face and I'm ugly from the side.
When I''m in doubt I turn to online Tarot cards, Google and daily horoscopes or games(when I''m not depressed) because I don't really have anything to believe in, but I think horoscopes kinda work, they have warned me of things, but also maybe just made me sabotage my relationships.
I'm a little crazy but I don't try to be.
I''m in bed ***because of my depression, but if you can get me out of the house I''ll go, as long as it doesn''t involve not wearing makeup around people or big groups of people unless you''re ok with me being tied to your hip for comfort until I don''t need it(he would push me off and say it was awkward or he didn't know how to give me attention while he gave his friends attention).
He was my first, I saved it for years but gave it to him because I thought he was the one, and I regret it.
Then he left after a year like I was nothing and let his friends scream through my bedroom window when I was begging him on my knees not to go, (yes I went that far and Im not ashamed of it) saying that I needed to get mental help and that I was abusive and holding him against his will (I'm 5'2 and can barely hold 2 milk jugs in one hand, he even pretended I was hurting him by lifting his chin) when in reality I was trying to get him to sit down and stop for a second rubbing his arms and hugging him while he stayed limp with absolutely no facial expressions except some smirks he probably didn't know he was doing, and I was the one who was hysterical, I was upset and crying and didn''t want him to go when they had issues themselves.
They may as well have thrown sh*t at me jumping around scratching their armpits while they did it.
Im ugly, I''m very loyal but very heartbroken,
so I''m not sure if I''m looking right now..
I donthe best I can with what little I have, I didn't get a lot in life except what was afforded, my family has had issues and we fight through them day by day.
If you're wanting to know about them ask, I won't bad mouth but I'll be honest.
PERSONAL INFORMATION
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Looking for
man
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Relationship
Never married
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Have kids
No
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Wants kids
Someday
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Ethnicity
Caucasian
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Faith
Agnostic
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Political views
Middle of the Road
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Body type
A Few Extra Pounds
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Height
5'2"
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Eye color
Hazel
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Smoke
No
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Drink
No
INTERESTS
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Kindo
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